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  • Life In Koru

    Life In Koru

    Life In Koru

    In 2 days, it will be my 2nd New Moon living in Aotearoa, Koru. 4 weeks flew by in a wink. Life has not slowed down for me yet. Setting up a new home is not a job to be completed in a mere 4 weeks, however in these 4 weeks, I have learned quite a lot about myself and my family. I have OCD, an absolute control freak, I cannot stand mess. Chaos is fine, but I need them organised. I need structure, even in the tiniest details. I need to learn to let go, much much more, oh so much more. I need to learn to live life in a whatever mode state 90% of the time here. I learn to live with spiders, yes, spiders. Lots and lots of spiders and their webs. I got use to flying insects banging on my window trying to get in at nights. I learn to check the weather, so I know what exactly to wear, and yet I can still get it wrong. I am starting to hate shopping. Yes, you got that right. In a house where we have mostly nothing, we needed essentials, and the first 3 weeks had been doing just that. Shopping for essentials, groceries, bedding, towels, furniture, utensils, and so on. To add on to the chaos, we even picked up a new puppy – Patch. I learn to potty train on the lawn. Not as easy as pee pad training I can tell you that much. So yeah, that has been life in the last 4 weeks pretty much.

    Patch - Our new puppy
    Patch – Our new puppy

    On the other hand, I have also attended partner yoga and a women’s circle and met up with wonderful people in the community. I am happy to find like-minded people on the same frequencies, although I still miss my jamming tribe in Singapore, I am happy to hear that they continued the monthly sacred music jams. I am still on the lookout for my sound and music tribe here. In divine timing I believe they will show up. After all, most of the synchronicites here have not failed to amaze me. Like how we were planning to visit a cheese factory to buy some cheese, only to end up in a gallery that sells all the incenses and resins and met an amazing medicine woman, a spiritual alchemist who works with plant medicine too. I’ve heard about her, and was planning to visit her shop as she was closing down, and somehow forgetting to plan the date to visit, I ended up there on the very last day of her gallery operations. That was no coincidence for sure. I shared with her my interest in shamanic sound journeying, and a customer heard it, and mentioned casually that as a customer, it would be something he would be very keen to attend, an incense making workshop with a shamanic sound ceremony. There we go, seeds planted, and perhaps something to manifest in the coming New Moon in Aquarius!

    I have also received many comments from friends that I am so brave to take this leap, to relocate with the family, to fight for this dream. Honestly, I hear about people relocating all the time, and the idea of a major relocation does sound daunting, because there’s just so much to plan and do! So yes, it is scary, overwhelming, but yet exciting and amazing all at once. Fear is a part of us, and it is only when we embrace it fully, then we can become complete.

    “Living with fear stops us from taking risks, and if you don’t go out on the branch, you are never going to get the best fruit.” ~ Sarah Parish​

    Knowing what we want is the first step of manifesting, and the next step is taking the action to do it. This is a very basic concept of Moonology New Moon manifesting. Those of you whom joined my New Moon Ceremonies would have learned this in our circles. This relocation, this whole new life in a new home, in a whole new country has been manifested religiously over the last 22 months, that is more than 22 New Moons! So what I am saying here is, if there is something you really, truly desire, you need to do the work to manifest it from your heart continuously, until it happens. Sometimes they never do happen the way you wanted it, but it will always happen the way it is needed to be. I was manifesting for a home in the South Island, but yet things fell through, and somehow we ended up in the North Island with a home that is more than we ever could asked for. The workings of the Universe is beyond what we can fathom, and honestly, I quite enjoy finding out what’s next. Waking up to sounds of nature, being surrounded by nature and animals is all I could ever dreamed of.  20 years ago, this would never had crossed my mind. Looking out the window, I am constantly being reminded of our tiny existence, amidst this vast nature, and so so much to learn from them.

    new sound healing studio Koru Oakura New Plymouth
    Our new sound studio

    I am looking forward to share my healing sounds with the community here, and any tourists who might pop into our humble retreat space, which I am naming it Rainbowls & Reiki River Retreat. We are still setting up the space, hopefully it will be ready by second quarter of 2025. Our studio is ready for classes, and welcome any wellness practitioners looking for a space rental or collaborations with sound healing to get in touch. Stay tune for more updates to come!

    Psst: Check out our new WIP website. Events will roll in very soon!

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  • No Mud No Lotus

    No Mud No Lotus

    No Mud No Lotus

    “Most people are afraid of suffering. But suffering is a kind of mud to help the lotus flower of happiness grow. There can be no lotus flower without the mud.” ~ Thich Nhat Hanh.

    We are born to suffer.  Agree?  We suffer from the country we are born into.  We suffer from the expectations of society around us.  We suffer from war and tyranny.  We suffer from starvation, drought, floods, and all kinds of natural disasters.  Mostly, we suffer because of our wanting.  We suffer because we want something we don’t have or can’t have.  Our desire makes us suffer.

    Our desire for more money, desire for more love, more fame, more recognition, more time, more cars, more hobbies, more of what we don’t believe we possess yet.  We suffer because we want something more.  Some of these sufferings are inevitable, because it pushes us to strive to work harder to gain what we hope to achieve in life.  I can’t help but think, our suffering never ends, until the day we die, even if we become the most successful person, the richest person in the world imaginable, there will always be something the human will find to desire.  More peace perhaps.  The day we stop wanting, is the day we stop suffering.

    My family has suffered in the last 15 months mentally, and emotionally because we wanted something.  We wanted to find a new home, in a new country, to start a new life.  Having 3 failed house offers in a span of 15 months meant we suffered financial losses, emotional pains, mental frustrations, all because we believe that we deserve to start over.  It was not easy for my hubby to first get accepted into a University with his PhD topic, then it wasn’t easy to get all our visas approved, then it was the hardest to find us the right home with all the right checklist that was within our budget in the region we had always thought we will live in – South Island, Nelson, and we didn’t.  But, we didn’t lose hope, all because we had come so far to get accepted into Uni, to get our visas, and now it was only a home.  How hard could it be?  Well hard, when the Universe tells us that we are looking in the wrong place.  It was only when we opened up our hearts to accept that maybe home could be found somewhere else outside of Nelson, then did we find the perfect home entirely by chance.  I remember I was even upset at my hubby for suggesting how about this house?  I looked at it, and asked where the hell is New Plymouth?  We haven’t even been there?!  Somehow, our hearts were drawn to this house, and everything happened really fast.

    I was back from Bali with my second ceremony where Pachamama had told me to be open, because it doesn’t matter where we live, we will eventually die one day.  That really took me out of my obsession of finding the perfect ‘safe’ place, because in reality, nowhere is really, ever, truly ‘safe’.  We lined up a few houses to view in a very short 4 nights trip to NZ, and slept the first night in our new home now.  I didn’t sleep for 48hrs straight from the day of flight, and we were viewing schools, and checking out homes, and a bottle of wine at dinner knocked me out, until I shot up straight in the middle of the night, remembering, we were here to check out the vibe of the house at night! Why are we sleeping?  So I woke up and walked around the house, it was pitch dark, and I had to feel my way around.

    Then I looked out the night sky for stars, but there were bright lights in the horizon, so I couldn’t see the Milky Way.  I tried to find the moon, and still I can’t see it.  I was looking for signs if this was the home.  Feeling somewhat disappointed, I went back to bed.  Only to wake up 2 hours later to a beautiful dawn morning, with purple skies, and there it was, the crescent moon smiling right at me.  I stepped out the balcony to look at the sky, the morning dawn, the rising sun, the moon still visible, the sounds of the birds and the river that runs behind the house, the views of the mountain ranges by the side…

    I knew this was it.  I want to wake up every day to these sights and sounds.

    home koru new zealand

    However, not wanting to feel the feeling of disappointment yet again, I did not allow myself to fall in love with the house, just in case it was not meant to be.  So we kept our hearts open as we continue house viewing over the next few days.  But, none compared to the river that runs by the house.  

    So we made our offer, and keeping fingers crossed the whole time.  When our offer was finally accepted, there was a joy, and a fear at the same time. What if… What if something happens, and it can’t be again? 

     This feeling is totally acceptable, given that we’ve been through that 3 previous times.  All paperwork were handled by my dearest hubby, and I am super grateful that he’s doing that, because I hate paperwork.  By the morning of 9 Oct 2024, it was official.  We found our new home, in a new country, to start over.  

    We will be living in Koru, near town of Oakura, and city of New Plymouth in the North Island.  Who would have thought that we will find a home in a place we haven’t even visited before?  Apparently, my Akashic Records indicated so, that we would end up buying somewhere we haven’t seen before.  It is a relief that we now have a home, and we are due to relocate end Dec 2024.  

    So yes, we suffered, because we wanted a new home, a ‘better’ lifestyle, and we fought hard to make it happen.  Now, we are fighting other challenges of lack of time, and decluttering for the move.  But… ‘No Mud, No Lotus.’ We have to suffer to become something beautiful, we have to suffer to fight for what we desire.  All sufferings comes in various degrees, and they are all suffering nonetheless.  We do not compare how much one suffered to another, for the outcome for all will be different.  What do you really want in life, and how much are you willing to suffer to achieve it?  

    “To live is to suffer, to survive is to find some meaning in the suffering.” ~ Friedrich Nietzsche.

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